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[09 Dec 2005|09:40pm] |
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for all you students out there who feel my pain.... lol.
Twas the Nite Before Finals
T'was the night before finals,
And all through the college,
The students were praying
For last minute knowledge.
Most were quite sleepy,
But none touched their beds,
While visions of essays
Danced in their heads.
Out in the taverns,
A few were still drinking,
And hoping that liquor
Would get their brains thinking.
In my own apartment,
I had been pacing,
Dreading all those exams
I soon would be facing.
My roommates were speechless,
Their noses in books,
And my comments to them
Drew unfriendly looks. [lol.]
I drained all the coffee,
And brewed a new pot,
No longer caring
That my nerves were shot.
I stared at my notes,
But my thoughts were all muddy,
My eyes went a blur,
I just couldn't study.
"Some pizza might help,"
I said with a shiver,
But each place I called
Refused to deliver.
I'd pretty much concluded
Life is unfair and cruel,
Since our futures all depend
On grades made in school.
When all of a sudden,
Our door opened wide,
And Patron Saint Put-It-Off
Ambled inside.
Her spirit was careless,
Her manner was mellow,
She looked at the mess
And started to bellow:
"Why should us students
Make such a fuss,
About what those teachers
Toss out to us?"
"On Cliff Notes! On Crib Notes!
On Last Year's Exams!
On Wing it and Sling it,
And Last Minute Crams!"
Her message delivered,
She vanished from sight,
But we heard her laughing
Outside in the night.
"Your teachers won't flunk you,
So just do your best.
Happy Finals to All,
And to All, a good test."
lol.
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[05 Oct 2005|10:23am] |
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wanted:
- 1 ride to halifax or general area.
- not particular over drop point.
- gas money is no object.
- return ride optional.
ok.... i know i'm kidding myself. lol.
just wanted to say good luck to you all. and have a great time and all the rest. its definitly one of those tournaments that you'll remember for a long time. trust me. [i.e. remember that talking robot that started to chase us around the mall britt? lmao. good times.] so go eagles go. lol.
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[18 Aug 2005|04:02pm] |
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sunday.
august 21st.
1:00pm.
mark's track.
memorial ride & racing.
drinks afterwards.
be there.
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[14 Aug 2005|10:36am] |
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mark.
he's going to be 26 forever now. but 26 years and not a single moment wasted. he was fearless, funny and kind. and i've yet to meet a single person who has something even remotely negative to say about him. so go ahead. please. write something. anything. a memory, a lyric, and funny moment or conversation related to him. if you know him well or not. because from the 26 years he spent here and away, there is definitly a fullfilled life story to be heard. and this entry is going public, so everyone can get a chance. i'll go first...
( hear you me my friend. )
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[26 May 2004|09:46pm] |
If you aren't already on my list, comment and i'll add you.
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[25 May 2004|08:39pm] |
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On May 21st
you travelled in a car
to the skatepark in Clarenville
but you never got far.
Five minutes later
you were on the ground
while Megan and Vicki laughed
until they fell down.
Soon they realized you
were in serious pain
so they hopped in the car
and drove up Legion Lane.
To the hospital they went
at such a fast pace
where Megan and Mel
had a wheelchair race. [lol.]
The story ends
with you in a cast
its doesn't look like
you be going anywhere fast.
Man.... don't I have the best friends ever? Thank you Megan, Amanda, Janine, Laura, Steve, Travis, Chris and Kerri for your awesome card. I love you guys. And these aren't even ALL of my awesome friends. :). lol. Megan came for a visit this afternoon and brought the card up to me. She stayed for a while and we watched a bit of Finding Nemo. God I love that movie. hah. lol. Well, thats all. I hope you enjoy the creativity of my friends as much as I did. lol.
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[24 May 2004|12:19pm] |
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Happy Birthday Ford. :)
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Hmm... lets see. Happy Long Weekend everyone. Its not quite over yet, but still. I had a good weekend I guess. There is a shitload to write... so I am just going with point form again. Some points may be longer then others. lol. So here goes...:
- Left school on friday and went to C-ville with Megan and Vicki.
- Went to a doctors appointment, checked out some decks at bikes and boards, then with Vicki to get her bellybutton pierced, then to Canadian Tire to get a new board.
- Left CT and went to the skatepark to try it out. Did some moves, tried to drop in on the quarter pipe. It never really worked out, so I fell and hurt my leg.
- Rolled around in pain for a bit while they laughed at me. lol. Then I managed to get to the hospital. Waited for a few hours, got in, got assessed, got x-rayed, got doped up for pain, and then got a slab cast put on my leg. Yes, I broke my leg. argh.
- Went to Subway with mom to eat around 12:30am, because I hadn't for about 6 hours. Then I hobbled home on crutches. End of Friday.
- Saturday I woke up, went to C-ville again to get my pain killers. lol. and some grad pics.
- Came home, got picked up and went to Bluff Head for the night.
- Went crusing in Petley for a bit on quad. [I can't believe they still let me drive. lol.] With my crutches strapped on the front with Joe, Joel, Don, Shane and Daniel.
- Then we headed in to Natasha's cabin for a while with Wack and Nicole and a shitload of other people for a few hours. Good times.
- Went back to my cabin and tried to sleep. [not fun with a cast on your leg.] End of Saturday.
- Woke up this morning, went down on my wharf on crutches, sat in my chair and trouted for a few hours. lol. It was fun. I got 16. Wack and Don came over around pond on quad for a bit.
- Went back over to Natasha's with the b'ys and attempted to play darts.
- Came back to the cabin, ate, got ready and came home.
And that was roughly it. I left out alot of details of course but.... yeah. No point in putting them in. Not a whole lot of people read anymore anyway. But all in all I had a good weekend, despite the leg. Its gonna blow being laid up for 6-7 weeks tho, but its my own fault I guess. Anywho, I'm really tired, so I'm gonna head. Good night.
P.S. For Sale:
Evolution Skateboard.
Like new. Hardly used.
Previous owner indisposed.
hah.
<3
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[19 May 2004|07:22pm] |
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Today was fairly eventful. And it was ok, despite the rain. Don't get me wrong now, I like rain, but somedays it's not so fun.
Well... today started off different. As soon as I stepped in school today the power went. and stayed off for a while, so they sent us home. But before we left, Cookie and Arlene got our class together and told us some news. [news I already knew... but didn't really know if it was true.] Jennifer, in my class is pregnant, and is very sick. Poor thing. :(. I felt like shit, cause the whole while I heard the news, I didn't really believe it. But she is... and like I said... she was real sick over the fact. So we all signed a card for her and got it sent up to the hospital.
Shortly after that, we got sent home. When I got home the power was flicking on and off, so I couldn't do a whole lot, so Adam calls and him, Justin and Geoff pick me up and we go to the gym for the afternoon. Good times. I'm going to be dead tomorrow tho. lol. It is awesome up there now, its alot bigger and there is new equipment, etc. I did shoulders and abs today. *ow*. lol. When we left there, we went to Subway... then to Toyota for a bit because Adam wanted to go visit his mom...[come to think of it, so did Justin and Geoff. lmao.] Then we went to A&P Music to oogle over some guitars. They have an AWESOME brick red Fender Strat in with a black pick guard. mmmm.... i think i'm in love. lol. We met up with Patty Lamb on the way back to the truck. lmao. I think he scared the shit out of Justin, because he ran away. lol. When we all got in the truck, he still wouldn't go away, he still wanted us to arm wrestle him. lol. So Adam gave him a few of our water bottles and then he finally went away. lol.
After all that, the b'ys dropped me off at the hospital because I had an appointment at like 3:30 to get some tests done. Before my appointment I decided to go and see Jennifer. I bought her a card and this balloon thingy and asked where her room was. Before I got there, a nurse told me she had been released. :). So, thats good news. I hope she is coming around well.
I got tested for TB [Tuberuclosis(?)] today. and it felt funny. ugh. They stuck a syringe in my left forearm right under a few layers of skin and inserted this liquid stuff in there which made my skin bubble up. ugh! lol. then i had to hold gauss over it for 15 mins, and now I have to go back on friday to get it checked. weird. and I'm pretty sure that I don't have TB, seeings as how it was whiped out like 30 years ago, but I have to get it done for college next year for some weird reason. oh well.... it doesn't bother me, just as long as I don't have to pee in a cup. lol.
After I got that done dad picked me up and we went and got groceries... then I picked out my professional pics from grad day and Shelley went and got her hair done.... and then we went to pizza delight for supper... and then we came home. So, yeah. Here I am. yay! hah. lol. Well... there's not really anyone online right now, and not a whole lot to be at, except the excessive amount of math i have to do, so I'm off to get at that. Peace.
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P.S. Just wanna to say that I'm glad things are getting better....
P.S.S. I miss you my many commenters! :(. Come back soon! :).
P.S.S.S. I saw Keith Brown today. woo!
<3
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[17 May 2004|08:14pm] |
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Ok. I finally have some time. I guess I'll write about grad. *sighs* Where to begin? Again, it was amazing. The decorations, the dresses, the tuxes, the lighting, the guests, the speeches, the whole atomsphere and ambience, just blew me away. I can't believe its over. I'd be hard pressed to find anything that I would trade for that night. It's hard to explain too... because I connected with alot of people in my class. People I never really have anything to do with, I found myself hugging, and shaking their hands. Even people I grew up with and I'm close to, we were even closer. I mean, Me and Wack slow danced together. And we hugged after that. Me and Wack mighta hugged twice in our lives. Not because we didn't want to.... we just... never. But we did then. It was nice. Another thing too. I had a few gifts piled on the table for me... and so did lots of other people and stuff. Anyway
I sat at a table with Justin and his date and he didn't have a single thing there. Except a card I had slid under his plate beforehand. Once he found it, and read it [no comments please] he got right welled up and shook my hand and said thanks over and over again. I've never seen Justin well up. We shake hands and hug all the time, but he's never been emotional around me hardly at all. Man.... grad does amazing things to people.
And I danced. Yes me. I danced and made a complete fucking fool of myself, but I didn't care. You only live once. I was really upset after our parent and date dances were over, because I knew that it was a sign that the night was just about over, which meant some more sad things soon. So I started to screech. lol. But believe it or not, my brother Adam cheered me up. We were slow dancing, [again, something I never do, or did, but did that night.] and he talked to me like a normal human being and calmed me down and helped me see that this is going to be one of the best nights of my life, so why waste it crying? After we were done, I kicked off my shoes and started in. lol. And I didn't care how stupid I looked. I had a good time. I was almost dead with sweat and exhaustion but I enjoyed myself. I think everyone did. It was a really great night for everyone there.
And I got a "Cinderella night" too. hah. But it was a bit earlier then midnight when I turned back to normal. lol. Man... like one of those friggin Extreme Makeover shows. lol. Ok.... I'll admit, it was fun to be all dressed up and get compliments and stuff. And I didn't mind the hair or makeup or earrings that much either, but... well... I was just glad to get back in my jeans n stuff. Even if it didn't look as nice. It was more comfortable... and more..... me. And I'm sorry to disappoint anyone, but there is no changing that. Its kinda obvious too, if you saw some of my mannerism while I was wearing my dress. lol. I wasn't just wearing pink. I wasn't just wearing a dress. I was wearing a PINK DRESS! lol. wheee! hahah. oh man. And I didn't know how to walk in it without walking on it...etc. It was just awkward. lol. oh mys... fun tho. really fun.
The supper went well as well. I was the MC, and I don't think I sucked it up too bad. lol. I was fairly comfortable, so it was all good. Ryan threw out his best [which was kinda lame at times] when we got to Roast the Teachers, and Cook got his digs in when he roasted us back. It was funny. And Steph and Adam gave a great Validictory... which made Steph teary halfway through. lol. And Richard even got up to say a few words, which made me teary. I'm real glad he came. And I finally got to say what I wanted to him, and I never got a punch in the face afterall. :). The funniest part of the supper was our Grade 4 letters compliments of Mrs. Porter. Oh man. Too funny to explain. I'll leave it at that. lol.
Safe Grad was good times too. It wasn't extraordinary(?), but it was fun. On the way up Me and Steve played guitar while the bus sang. lol. And then I chilled with Laura, Megan, Manly, Vicki, Wack, Justin and Richard and Samantha at various locations.... bowling...pizza... Tim's... etc. Good times.
Well... this is getting really long here now. And I haven't even really covered half of what I wanted to say. Guess I never should have even tried. lol. It was just an amazing night, one I was glad to be a part of, and one I wouldn't trade for hardly anything in this world. And I just want to say thanks to anyone who had any part of it in anyway, whether you helped us decorate, or were an invited guest. If you were my best friends date, or was present at the grand march and dance and got my flower. It was great to have everyone there. And..... ok ok ok ... I'll stop. lol. I could friggin go on forever. But this is it. You'll understand on the day of your grad. lol. So before I start getting all sad and teary and shit, I'll end this here. Goodnight!
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Well... our grad was last night. and it was absolutely amazing. everything. some of you were there, some of you weren't. it was just.... amazing. i've got lots to write... about lots of things... but i'm just too tired to write right now. Reason: 0 sleep. I'll update good later.
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| ...time to get my punk ass off the street...i've been living here for so long...I'M GONNA GRADUATE!! |
[15 May 2004|07:14am] |
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Ok, its a bit after 7:00 am here now, on Saturday morning. And today is grad day. I only went to bed a bit after 12, but I have already been awake for hours this morning. I can't sleep, I'm just too excited, scared, anxious, .... or all of these above. I've got these butterflies going wild in my stomach, and that doesn't happen too much, but its definitly keeping me up right about now. I can't believe today is the day. It's sunny now, I hope it stays that way. In about an hour or so I leave to go get my hair done, which marks the beginning of my graduation day. ahhh!
Well, I have to say that last night was one of the best ever. It was soooooo much like old times, I could have cried. When I got up from church rehersal, I ate, and then went to the store to enjoy my last night before grad, and EVERYONE was there. Me, Megs, Al, Shaun, Adam came up, Amanda, Janine, Joel, etc. etc. There was like a million more. Oh, yeah..... and Laura was there! and almost knocked me down with a hug...lol... and... get this.... are you ready....?...*drum roll*..... STEVE WAS THERE!!!!!:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D. woot! My Stevie! I missed him soooo much. We high fived and had a long hug too. It was great. If Lee was here, we would have had the whole gang home again, just like old times. I dunno.... it might not seem like much to some people, but it was awesome. We all chilled at the store for a while, then I had to go to Cormack to pick up 25 bags of ice for grad. [which reminds me... *writes on hand* remember-to-take-ice-out-of-freezer.] So about 7 of us piled in to go get it. Then when we got back, we went over to the No Hastle Castle to have a chill. More like old times. There was a crowd over there, so we never stayed too long. Then around 11:00 or so, me, Laura and Megan left and went back to Laura's to look at some of her graduation pics. We got tired, I dropped Megan off, then came home and went to bed. After lying awake for a few hours first of course. lol. But it was an awesome night.
Well.... decorating the gym these past few days have been quite interesting too. It looks awesome now, and alot of work went into it, so don't get me wrong. But I think that if we could have went about it differently, there would be alot more people in my class speaking to each other today, instead of giving scowls across tables. It got to a point yesterday where I just wanted to scream out and say "chill the fuck out, its grad, and grad is supposed to be a happy time." I broke out the ol' guitar and started singing happy songs to some people and everything. And it actually worked a bit. But I don't really know if they were laughing with me... or at me.... but either way... it was good... because they stopped crying. :). Man, it even got to the point tho where Mrs. Brown [our teacher sponser] started to cry, out of everything that went on. And Me and my dear friend Justin didn't know who to hug or to feel for because there WAS so much going on, that no one was really wrong and no one was really right. But oh well, its overwith now. The gym looks good, and today is the day, so hopefully people will put things aside and have an awesome one.
I think thats about it. I could go on, but I'm having an energy burst fit now, so i can't sit any longer. I'm gonna go... and go for a jog or something. lol. So, to those it applies to: Happy Graduation!. and to those it don't, I love you all, and hopefully you'll catch a glimpse today, or if not I'll send you lots of pictures. :). Peace!
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its after 10. i'm just getting home. i'm tired. cranky. beat out and frazzled right to the bone. mel + grad decorating for 6 hours + getting bitched at + school council meeting afterwards = a very tired and contrary girl. at least things are starting to look like a read grad. and i don't care how rough it gets, i'm going to keep my cool and not give up. *yawns* *stretches* *rubs eyes* ok, sorry. no good update for me tonight. it doesn't really matter tho. no one comments much lately anyway.
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We had our grad BBQ today. it was fun. more people then i thought showed up for it too. good times. i brought my BBQ down this morning in truck and i had to stop to Terri's to pick up hers too. What a time trying to get it in... oh man. lol. i'm lucky i had Alex Penney, the Canadian Tire man there to help me out. hah. Well... other then those escapades... it was pretty good. Like I said, there was lots of people there... lots of food... and lots of laughs. lol. I don't really hang with 90% of the people that was there... but it was still fun all the same. I met some new people too. One of which I will be sitting with at Grad. Justin's date Sam showed up. Shes nice. :). And she has awesome hair too. And it was nice... cause I guess it was our first taste of the offical grad. Being together with all our class and stuff.
We chatted it up for a bit.... played some floor hockey... then packed up all the stuff and came home. See... I forgot that getting the BBQ's to school was only half the battle. Getting them both back in the truck was much fun too. At least I had some more help. Thanks Adam. lol. But just as everyone else left, Elaine was left with her 2 trying to get them tied in and all that crap, so I helped her with that. About an hour later, I was finished. hah. Ok... not that long... but it was another nice while. Then I dropped off the b'ys and came home.
So here I sit, not doing much of anything. I have English I should be studying for... but I'm not that bad in English... so I guess it can wait. And I'm home alone again... so I'm lonely. :(. lol. Well... I guess I better go. I don't have anything else remotely intelligent to say... plus I keep getting disconnected from the internet every 10 seconds, so before it happens again and I break something on my computer or myself... I'm gone. Good night.
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P.S. Big shout out to the Girl Guides. Awesome job with the clean up. Looked like a blast. ;). lol. <3
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| A Weekend in the Life of Mel: |
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hum. this weekend was ok. it was kinda..... calm. ah well...a calm weekend before next weekend might be good. ahh! next weekend! here is a detailed description to bore you with:
ok, friday after school i went to Clarenville to go tanning again. i met up with Steph, Kate, Britt and Nicole at KFC afterwards. then we went to Reitmans(?) to look at dresses or something. Then to Canadian Tire to get Adam his birthday present. When I got home, I went to Vicki's with her and Megan and Andrew and Wendy and Cassy and Beak, and we played Gamecube. lol. then I had to leave around 11:30 and drive home.
Yesterday was kinda... calm too...but a bit more eventful. i woke up early and came on here. then i went out and played ball for a bit. mom came and picked me up for more tanning. [i swear i'm gonna have skin cancer.] then when i got home Adam, Steph, Grant, Cookie, Nick, Billy and Muffin and... some other people i can't remember...all came here for a BBQ. Good times. I left after we ate and went to the store where Tyler, Fallon and Devon were. I got bored, so i walked to Megans, and her and Vicki were just gettin up from hickmans. then we all went back to the store. we got bored very quickly again so the 3 of us drove up to Tim's where we met Travis and Paula. we had a chat and then we came home. well... we picked up Philip first who was hitching and brought him the whole way home. well... yeah. then we went to Megans and watched dirty dancing and i walked home at around 2.
Which brings me to today. i woke up early to bring moms car home and haven't done much since. so here i am. So... there you have it. A weekend in the life of Mel. wow. hah. ok.. on to something less boring.
Hmm....I've been thinking. About Grad this weekend. Is it just me being.... me... or do anymore of you find the fact that our Grad is THIS weekend is a bit surreal? It's not just the Grad..... or their Grad anymore. Its finally ours. Its our time. Whoa. I dunno... I don't mean to be getting all sentimental on you now, but...well... this is it. In just 6 days we will all be getting dressed in our best and doing our thing... with the people most of which we have spent the last 13 years with. I dunno... I'm excited... and scared all at the same time. Excited because it's a big deal... i mean....formal wear and pictures and speeches and all that... but scared... because it means that there is no coming back next year. To high school I mean. Yes, ok, I'm a geek. I'm going to miss school. Not because I love the work, oh no. lol. But because i love the people, and high school offers a big sense of security... and well... it just..... it still lets you know that your still a kid. Next year I have to face the big bad world.... and I just hope I'm ready for it. Blah. I don't know. I think too much. It'll be just fine. Good times this weekend... and then after that... who knows? I'll take it, whatever it is. Man, ok I've got to stop being lame. lol. I'll just be like everyone else is around this time.
GRAD IN 6 DAYS!!!!!
Ha. Ok, maybe not. Well... now that I have expressed my somewhat twisted thoughts for the day, and thoroughly described my weekend to you, I'm gonna head I guess. I have to start writing up some notes for Grad. I'm the lucky fool that gets to be the M C for the Supper. yay me. lol. Let me know if you come across any good jokes I could use. Well... thats all.
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yeah, i wrote up one of these a few nights ago but lost it all, so here it goes again i guess....
- i went tanning again today. or "fake and bake" as i more affectionatly call it. i don't think its working.
- Brittany called golf clubs "sticks" today when we were at Canadian Tire. lmao.
- i have a headache.
- i need new guitar strings. i broke 4 in one week. its really getting hard to play now.
- i can't wait for grad. but i don't want it to come.
- i wish i could go to university.
- i REALLY wish i could live with the b'ys next year. i'm pretty let down over that. :(.
- i spent last night at vickis. first school night spent away from home for a LONG time.
- we were both eighteen and it felt so right....sleeping all day, staying up all night...
- i miss my skateboard.
- i haven't been feeling the best lately.
- i'm glad richard is coming in for grad. i really hope i get to say what i want to say to him.
- its funny but.... i like things now... like this. the way it is. i hope they stay. i just find that there's no... weird?[maybe not right word] anymore. and i like that.
- i almost have Cassy's Nirvana book read. i think i might steal it too. ;). lol.
- i have to start studying for finals soon. :(
- this doesn't feel like friday. why can't i relax?
- i want to go golfing soon.
- my brother is home. :)
- i need a party. i'm too wound up. time to get loaded and laid. lol.
- i wish i wasn't such a good liar.
- i need a new gym membership soon too.
- i really miss my skateboard.
- "Looks like its the crack of dawn to me...".
- i smell like tanning lotion. mmmmm.
- i need a hair cut. i look like a fucking rag-tag kid.
- its true there is no more "weird".... but still.....this is harder then i thought.
- you've [still] got this silly way.... of keeping me on the edge of my seat. <3.
- i have a doctors appointment on tuesday. i hope everything checks out. :/
- my headache is getting worse.
- i'm supposed to go to hickman's tonight... but i don't feel up to it.
- happy almost birthday, ben, you big fag. lol.
- hey everybody.... remember these----> ¿...?
- yes, i am obviously running out of pointless, random thoughts.
- its starting to rain.
- i still wish you were ugly.[sort of.]
- Countdowns:
Grad BBQ - 3 days.
Grad - 8 days.
Til I graduate and move away - too many.
- our school has shitty air. lol.
- we are supposed to get snow?? it's MAY!
- i'm out of random thoughts
- i'll end with a random lyric:
There's a place on the corner of Cherry street, we would both walk on the beach in our bare feet....
Thats all.
♥
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[05 May 2004|09:08pm] |
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this was my plan. go away on vacation. get a tan, and a dress that wouldn't be quite like anyone elses. go to my grad with my hair and nails done and look almost totally unrecognizable. be pretty for a change. and be special, with my new dress and appearance. i was almost looking forward to it, because i went so far to get my things, and i was sure no one else would have anything just quite like them, so it would be kinda special. now, i say almost looking forward to it because well....its not really me, but its a change, and its supposed to be a good one, even if it does only last for a few hours.
now whats wrong with my plan you ask? well, i'm really not looking that forward to it anymore. why? because of my dress. my dress? the one i actually liked? the one i picked, out of hundreds? the one i looked everywhere to find? guess what? i experienced every teen girls nightmare. someone else has it. and its someone not even graduating.
now, it might not seem like much to some people, but for some reason, i am REALLY disappointed. and i don't even like dresses. no offence to her now, because i love her to death and she had no idea and feels bad enough about it, but i'm sad. i didn't think i'd get sad over something like that, but i am. :(
but.
i'll still go and get my hair and nails done and have my tan, and hold my head high. i'll wear my dress too. my dress that is the same as someone elses. i guess the only thing now is that.... i just won't be that special anymore. *sigh*
</3
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[04 May 2004|05:22pm] |
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hmm. update time. this won't be long. or eventful, as usual. i had a long update for last night, but when i went to post, my computer locked up and i lost it all, so i got sooky and went to bed. lol.
today was good. classes were ok.... and i got some work done. after school was fun too. i went to c-ville with Steph and Terri Shitty. We all had fake and bake sessions. We saw Elaine up there too gettin a manicure. ahh! no trouble to tell grad is coming up. good times tho. then we went and bought some Nazareth tickets.... and ice cream... and came home. thats about it. for real. lol. yeah, i have no life... but i'm starting to get used to that. hah. well... i'm gonna head... and get some food. keep on rockin in the free world.
♥
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[02 May 2004|07:22pm] |
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go....
hmmm....something's not right.
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